[ after... all of that... Meteion is here, on the Verdant floor!
she's just sitting here though, head lowered with a distant look. just waiting for Buzen while she sorts through some thoughts. however, once she sees him, she sits up a little. ]
[buzen knows that he's not very smart, and not always able to help in puzzling things like that. but what he can do is be a foundation for the people he cares about - and he knows he'll pick up meteion any time she could need him]
... I think it's unfair too. Ever since... I learned those feelings of hatred and bitterness - I wondered if it would be something like that.
[ . . . ]
I don't know if I can answer that for you, Mete-chan. If you hurt someone... what do you think you would feel? It's scary, right?
[ . . . he holds onto her then, and rubs her back. if she cries, then he'll just hug her through it, steady and calm.]
... I know. I know you don't, Mete-chan. No one here wants to hurt each other either.
[garou not included - but even garou wouldn't go this far, buzen's pretty sure.
it's a hard thing for buzen to handle. he wants to be comforting, but he doesn't want to look away from everything so difficult either. but meteion is different from him. she's small, she's not meant for war. how does he support her without telling lies?]
... but I think that's why, eventually, we're going to win. We won't let this place beat us. There's too many people here who care an awful lot.
It might just be a little scary, and hard, on the way. But I won't leave you alone, no matter what.
[ it's quiet crying, sniffling, trying to rub at her eyes while still keeping herself buried in his embrace.
it's tough because, despite everything, she's still trying to... understand and learn. what things mean, reflect on the feelings and emotions around her. but she is distraught to consider the idea of her hurting someone.. in that same manner that has happened. ]
Will... we? Even if this happens again next week... and the week after that?
[ her brows furrow, frowning deeper, thinking about the process. the voting... what's going to happen tomorrow? a duel, or an execution... ]
... [ she knows Buzen won't leave her alone, it's in that she places her hope in. to ease off some of that fear, losing some of that intensity. part of her is too scared to ask, but another part of her... has to know. ] Buzen, what... is an execution?
Mm-hmm. [a soft little affirmation as he rubs her back, letting her cry on him as he just holds her close] Because even when it feels like the night goes on for a very long time, dawn will break eventually. So it might be scary for a little while... but it'll be okay. We won't lose, so keep your hope close.
[he means it as sincerely as he can - because he's seen all the horrors of history by now. they're unspeakable, but at the same time, they pass. it isn't all darkness at all times.]
... execution is what happens when a man will die. Zuma-san chose to let himself be killed instead of having to fight one of us.
I think he wants to try to find atonement for what he's done.
[ she rubs at her eyes, taking in some breaths and nodding along. it's a bit painful, but she wants... to be strong. she doesn't want to worry anyone. as much as she appreciates everyone that has checked up on her, she wants to be strong for them. she wants to be strong for buzen too. ]
I'll keep it close... I won't forget it. [ she can hear the sincerity in his tone, she can tell he's genuinely trying to reassure her. ]
..Mmm. I think.. I can understand. If, it had been me making that decision, I would have.. done the same.
[ she would rather atone for her actions, even if it meant being alone, she wouldn't want to fight anyone else- put another person at risk. ]
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w1, saturday post-trial
she's just sitting here though, head lowered with a distant look. just waiting for Buzen while she sorts through some thoughts. however, once she sees him, she sits up a little. ]
Buzen..
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Hey, Mete-chan.
What are you thinking about?
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About what was said... I think it's.. unfair. To Kazuma. To his.. best friend. He didn't do it... Not.. really.
That just makes things more... scary. What if...
[ her words are quiet, almost a whisper in the air. ] What if I.. eventually hurt someone too?
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... I think it's unfair too. Ever since... I learned those feelings of hatred and bitterness - I wondered if it would be something like that.
[ . . . ]
I don't know if I can answer that for you, Mete-chan. If you hurt someone... what do you think you would feel? It's scary, right?
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Not only.. scary. It would hurt. All that.. pain.
[ it's a heavy weight. all those emotions. what she saw, what she heard, learned of their thoughts... it aches. she can't help but cry. ]
I don't.. want to hurt anyone. [ terrible! murder mystery is awful! ]
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... I know. I know you don't, Mete-chan. No one here wants to hurt each other either.
[garou not included - but even garou wouldn't go this far, buzen's pretty sure.
it's a hard thing for buzen to handle. he wants to be comforting, but he doesn't want to look away from everything so difficult either. but meteion is different from him. she's small, she's not meant for war. how does he support her without telling lies?]
... but I think that's why, eventually, we're going to win. We won't let this place beat us. There's too many people here who care an awful lot.
It might just be a little scary, and hard, on the way. But I won't leave you alone, no matter what.
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it's tough because, despite everything, she's still trying to... understand and learn. what things mean, reflect on the feelings and emotions around her. but she is distraught to consider the idea of her hurting someone.. in that same manner that has happened. ]
Will... we? Even if this happens again next week... and the week after that?
[ her brows furrow, frowning deeper, thinking about the process. the voting... what's going to happen tomorrow? a duel, or an execution... ]
... [ she knows Buzen won't leave her alone, it's in that she places her hope in. to ease off some of that fear, losing some of that intensity. part of her is too scared to ask, but another part of her... has to know. ] Buzen, what... is an execution?
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[he means it as sincerely as he can - because he's seen all the horrors of history by now. they're unspeakable, but at the same time, they pass. it isn't all darkness at all times.]
... execution is what happens when a man will die. Zuma-san chose to let himself be killed instead of having to fight one of us.
I think he wants to try to find atonement for what he's done.
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I'll keep it close... I won't forget it. [ she can hear the sincerity in his tone, she can tell he's genuinely trying to reassure her. ]
..Mmm. I think.. I can understand. If, it had been me making that decision, I would have.. done the same.
[ she would rather atone for her actions, even if it meant being alone, she wouldn't want to fight anyone else- put another person at risk. ]